BlackedOutArtIs

I feel it. This has to be the one. Even though he's far away and he's still partly hidden, I just know it. Our love will be tested. But if we succeed, the best time of my life is starting.

I am ready to face it. I am what I hate. None wants to help me, cause they're afraid of the same thing I'm afraid of. Should've told me. But, do I want to accept it? I don't think so. I don't want to name it, don't want to say it, speak the words. Say it. Someone, please tell me. What am I? Should I seek out myself? It has to stop. Right now. I'm leaving. I've never loved anyone this much. If only somebody knew I love him, they could tell him. But, how? How would they tell him if he doesn't exists? The dreams are over. I want them to be over, but can I? Can I hold myself from dreaming? Do I want to live in this wor

It is now, I'm not normal. I have to hold my tears, hide my pain from my own family. I can not tell anyone. Or maybe I just do not want to tell anyone. I want to be alone. Forever Just dreaming is good enough for me. Then I can imagine them how I want them to be. No people keeping me from loving, no distance keeping me from touching. Do I need help? If somebody would hand it to me, I'd take it with every bit of happiness that is left. I think I just need somebody, But who ~~ ~Cly